Where To Begin?

So much happens in a day.  So many thoughts swirling in my head.  So many of them fleeting.

I could tell you about Buttercup, how he’s an amazing baby, sleeping through the night, smiling and giggling and growing like a weed.

I could tell you how I miss my mom, thinking of her daily, and wanting to be done with all this paperwork crap.

I could tell you how I’m looking forward to being done with work but I’m scared.

I could tell you things are a bit rough with B, mostly because I’m working and not getting support from him.  When I feel like this I can’t even look him in the eyes.

I could tell you that the interment for my mom is tomorrow and I’m sad and it’s going to rain and I don’t care.

Because I’m numb.

My two boys are a welcome distraction, if I didn’t have them I don’t know where I’d be.

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